Cry Boybies

I have made every person I have ever dated cry. I don't know if this is because of who I date or who I am. Most of the time I have one of two very distinct and different reactions: I'm either completely disgusted with the person or feel a heavy wash of shame for causing them pain.

There is only one instance I can think of where I didn't have either of these reactions.

One evening, I was having an argument with my boyfriend at the time that was so asinine that I'm not going into details here. We ended up glaring at each other in a very middle school-esque manner. I was about to break my glare and say, "What are we even fighting about?" when I noticed it. I don't even know if I can describe it properly, but there was a sudden panic behind his eyes and slight wobbling of his lower lip. I knew what was coming, and instead of preventing it, I sort of sneared at him to hasten it. Then he broke down and choked out, "Please don't break up with me!"

I don't know why, but at that moment all I felt was deep and utter satisfaction.

Sometimes the things I do make me question whether or not I'm a good person, and then whether or not I care either way.